is a memoir about learning to live inside unanswered questions and discovering meaning where certainty disappears. With honesty and emotional precision, Joyce Skala traces a life shaped by music, motherhood, illness, ambition, and the quiet reckonings that arrive when control slips away.

Rather than offering easy resolutions, this story explores what happens when pain refuses neat explanations and labels like “good” and “bad” begin to fall apart.

Through moments both tender and unsparing, the book invites readers to reconsider how they measure loss, resilience, and identity and to ask whether the experiences we resist most may be the ones that change us in lasting ways.

This memoir is for readers who have learned that survival mode is not the same as healing, and that meaning is often found not in fixing what’s broken, but in learning how to live fully within it.